The Black and Broken Window

Ngoc just thinks the exactly same as I do

mngocnguyen:

Once in a while, I just lie myself down in my bed, just like a worm lol, I confess. I didn’t want to get up, I didn’t want to entertain myself, I didn’t want to do anything to get out of this mess, I don’t feel like doing anything at all. Life confused me much, thus, I just lied down there then think about this then that, question myself about this and that, regret of doing this and that. Hello? Am I having the this and that life?
Oh well, to be honest, I have this naughty thought long time ago, I think that God made everything just for me, only me. And everything around me was just for me, it was all an imagination and I was the only creature that really lived. Sounds stupid but well, it’s just for you to know what I’m thinking right now. I’m in a bad mood actually. Whenever I’m pissed off or bored, I end up blogging and sharing to the closest people. Just like now for example, I’m waiting for BaoLinh to come back, since it’s quite long, I end up writing. I enjoy writing actually haha, I find it quite interesting even though no one reads my entries, read them my own xD.
I find it really funny whatever I’m typing here, I enjoy writing, have lots of things to write about but seriously do not know where to start. Tumblr isn’t a safe place to write whatever you want anymore, since some of my friends and my sister join it. I wanted to open a new blog only for the people whom I trust can read it but I’m too lazy haha.

I’ve been disapointed in lots of the relationships between me and my friends lately. I realized that some people whom I thought were nice actually aren’t. And what other people told me about them was true. But well, I’m not gonna go too far into their subjects. Well, there’s absolutely nothing surprising when you realize that you’ve chosen the wrong people to be friends it, it happens quite often and I’m sure that you’ve been through or you’ll be through this situation just like me. It’s Sunday today and tomorrow’s Monday. It feels really distracting going to school facing the people whom you don’t want to you know? Especially, facing them saying this and that to your close people about you which is not true you know? They will find that game boring soon haha. The truth is, I don’t mind at all and I don’t care either. First of all, it is because it’s not true, and second, I don’t have time to explain things that are not true. That’s one of my rules of life, I don’t spend time on the people whom I don’t like and whom I think that they’re not the right people to be friends with, even though I don’t hate or dislike them. Saying that might be really arrogant but that’s just what I think and do after all, no one can stops me. Lots of people dislike me actually, and I dislike some people as well. Though, I’m not like those people who hate people just because they hate you, that’s not a reason for the question “Why do you hate them/him/her?”. For those who hate people just because of that, I think you need a second reason, honestly.
Another fact, I hate it when people don’t care how other people feel, to not care about what other people think is ok but about not about what other people feel is kinda cruel you know. I hate fake people as well btw. “Perfect girls aren’t real, real girls aren’t perfect.” I’m involved in a really childish conflict btw, I don’t want to do anything at all, wasn’t my fault after all, just let it be haha…And yeah, I recommend you to go and experience my situation right now, it will learn you how to choose the right people to be friends with ;). I should be more careful the next time…

I’m 13 already, it’s so fast, it’s thirteen years of life already, 13 years being a human already. Sometimes, I just ask myself if I’m a human being lol, I find myself quite extraordinary actually. I like things that people don’t and I don’t understand why is so wrong of liking weird things. My mom always complain about me liking new/special/unique/weird things, some people say that it’s not like anybody. What I don’t get it, why do people say that I have to like the things that lots of people like as well?-What’s so wrong of trying/liking new things? Well, let me tell you what I think writing those sentences: I may be weird and people don’t like it, but at least I’m different. Some of my friends have been saying that I’ve changed too much since the beggining of the year, almost 6 months already, I realize that as well, and I’m sort of changing in a better way \m/. I find the people who say that they don’t like the other people’s things really funny. I mean, if they dislike it, why do they have to listen or to look at it? Why don’t they just let it all behind, they’re wasting their time. They won’t gain anything anyways.
Since now, until I die. I wanna do something big and extraordinary as well, I wanna experience all the things I want to, I want to work all my dreamjobs, it would be so amazing if I experience them all. I have a desire, my desire is great, it’s big.

Hmm, next:
I wonder what will happen if my family was really rich, I was really tall, I don’t have to wait or worry about anything and I had whatever I want. It must be so different and I would be so glad. Some people tell me that having whatever you want makes you bad. Is that true? Or it is just some -Vietnam’s way of thinking- I don’t think that way, I think that it’s just you.
Haha, I’m so lame, not good at writing. See ya tomorrow if can, coming back with the PD conversations haha

I didn’t create confict. I didn’t want to be involved in this conflict. I don’t like conflict at all.

Well, i was only following the flow. You gave me what i didn’t want so I gave you back the same thing, which you didn’t want as well. I would be glad if you could realize that you cannot have everything at the same time.

To tell you the truth, i’m disappointed that you don’t know what is really important in life. You may enjoy those moments for days, months, but years later, when you look back, will you regret or be happy?

Nevermind, let time answer that question. I’m done ( oh and please don’t think of me as a master of self defense ‘cause I’m not )